Friday 28 December 2012

A Bittersweet Goodbye




Standing on my toes,
Eyes closed,
Touching your lips for the last time.
I hate to say goodbye to you.
I hate to let us walk away.


From the hello,
That I’ve known you.
To this good-bye
We have to say.
The hardest thing
I’ve ever done- 
Is being forced to walk different ways.


Drowning in tears,
Can’t see what’s ahead.
The dreams we knit were beautiful,
The reality begged to differ.
Promises were forced to break,
The tinkling eyes,
And the sad smile.


Holding hands-
Till the time we had.
Watching the train,
Pull in- to way.
Holding each other-
Tolling for the time we had.


Slowly his face disappears,
As he follows my train.
Will we meet again,
Will this waiting ever end?
Going to two different parts of life,
From sharing just one.
Will in the future,
Our lives, intervene?
Will the love rekindle-
And remember its glory?


Will the time bring me-
What was always mine?



Swati Jain

Monday 17 December 2012

Of Apologies and Birthdays

Yeah. So, please don't kill us. I know it has been almost three weeks since our last post. Actually, this post was supposed to be by my best friend, but she's been pretty busy recently, so I get to make a post. And she has made me promise that no matter what, the blog has to be updated it once a week and I have to update it if she can't. So, yeah. Here I am. And we'r really sorry to keep you guys waiting. I can also promise you that there will be a post next week only because I'm anal enough to pre-write my blogs. This one's not pre-written, though. 

Today, I'd like to talk about one of my really good friend- Milica Smiljkovic. Her birthday was on 12th. I had wanted to write a fanfiction for her as a birthday present, but for some reason, that never really materialized (read procrastination and lack of ideas). So, I'm dedicating this post to her as a birthday present.



I met Milica for the first time on the facebook page called 'Peace.Love.Harry Potter'. There was a quiz going on and we were playing for our respective houses (she's a Hufflepuff and cookies to you if you can guess my house :P). She won, obviously. And I was awed by her quizzing skills. She was the first HP fandom friend I added on facebook.

We used to talk a lot. Thanks to her, I know a lot more about the world. I also remember dumping a lot of my issues on to her and she always gave me nice advice. I think of her as this badass person who can do anything she wants. But she also has this really sweet side. I think I've told her a lot of times that she'd fit in very well in Slytherin :P.

It's been close to about three years (?) since we've known each other and till now, she's the most awesome person I've met on facebook in HP fandom (Sorry Akash, Divya, Shirley, Lyndsey and others). So, for her birthday, I'd like to wish for prosperity, happiness and an interesting life for her (not that she doesn't have all these already, but still :P).

Milica, I know we don't talk much nowadays because of yours and my time constraints, but know that you'll always be very special to me :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Sunday 25 November 2012

Random Thoughts (again :P)


Hi guys! Er, sorry about that huge gap. November has been just so hectic. I mean, between studying for exams, reading fanfictions and sleeping, I’ve had to give up NaNowriMo. This always happens with me. I start a story and just when I’, starting to like what I have written, something or the other happens and I have to stop writing ._.

Also, until mid November, I was actually watching Criminal Minds. But then, I finished season 7. I’m really looking forward to season 8, which I hope is full of better criminals and crimes. But until the whole of season 8 comes out, I cannot watch it. Otherwise, I’d just hyperventilate from the release of one episode to the other. It happened to me in season 4 of Glee. Until, you know, Klaine broke up. Then I stopped watching it. But I restarted because they brought Sebastian back! I know Sebastian’s gorgeousness isn’t enough to make up for Klaine’s loss, but Sebastian’s gorgeousness along with his asshole-ness just might be enough ;)



Recently, I talked to this friend of mine (R) about my dating life (actually, the absence of it). And when I was moaning and whining about it to her, I realized the main problem. My life is stagnant. My social circles are not expanding. At all. If I don’t meet new people, how do I hope to get a date? But I’m just so painfully shy that one of my friends (N) mistook it for arrogance and snobbishness at the beginning of our acquaintance. R suggested that I go out clubbing and join poetry groups and stuff, but I’m too shy for poetry groups and I’m not into clubbing at all. So, what do you guys think I should do to get into the dating scene?

Anyway, I don’t have much to say right now because I’m only wandering back and forth from sleep to study and I haven’t witnessed anything interesting in a few days (except for my roommate watching Breaking Dawn part 2 twice- I don’t know how she could even stand it once but she’s a Twlight fan ._.), so I’ll sign off with these beautiful lines by Shakespeare that I came across in a fanfiction. Here it goes-

Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken.

Wednesday 21 November 2012

'The End'- Swati

Well. We're verrrrrrry sorry that we are a new blog and we have been absolutely inactive. But, we were both a little caught up with some personal matters of our own. Sorrry! To make up, here's a little poem I wrote recently. It's a sad one. I hope you like it! Let me know what you think in the comments!




I look at him with tear-filled eyes,
Shake my head and disagree.
This IS over,
I repeat to him and me.
Don’t do this, don’t stand here,
Just please leave, like you did, again.
Don’t give me anymore reasons,
Don’t keep making excuses, anymore.
This time, I decide,
And I decided that this is done.
I don’t want to let you fight
For another chance, that you might.
I don’t want you to be around,
To stick and to talk.
You talk about the old times,
Old memories, past kisses,
And the left behind.
I stand and listen,
Because, I remembered a different time.
I remembered waiting-
And lot of crying.
I remembered sitting there,
Telling my friends, weeping,
About what happened.
I remember everything,
Just I remember it different.

This IS the end,
I can’t keep doing this anymore,
This conversation, this argument-
Us, I can’t do it anymore, again.
I cannot sit there,
Thinking it’s all my wrong, again.
This is the end.




November 14, 2012

Sunday 4 November 2012

NaNoWriMo

So, it’s November. I’m actually quite sad about  it being November because I love October. October is the month where the temperature is just right. There’s no sun. A light breeze flows throughout the month. I could livein this weather forever. However, what would make it even better would be maple trees shedding red, yellow and mustard leaves which the wind would carry to me. But yeah. I live in India. We don't have maple trees. We don’t have autumn -.-

Anyway, it’s a new month. But November is not an ordinary month. It’s a month for the preparation of my exams, which are in December, by the way. It’s also the month for NaNoWriMo. I don’t know how many of you would know about it, but for all the dunderheads who don’t know about it, the full form of NaNoWriMo is National Novel Writing Month. Er, I don’t know which country’s national novel writing month it is, but people from all over the world participate in NaNoWriMo. And as you guessed it, November is the month to write a novel.

It’s actually a bad time for me to start a novel because I have three and a half seasons of Criminal Minds to go through. Also, my exams are coming up and I need to study. But it’s my last year as a literature student. And I don’t have a novel to my name. How embarrassing is that? So, I decided that no matter how horrible it turns out, I WILL write a novel. I’m already four thousand words into it. And because I’m writing thousand words per day (which is nothing short of a Herculean task), I hope to achieve thirty thousand words by the end of the month. If I succeed, this will be the longest thing I would have ever written.

Honestly, I don’t like writing. Don’t get me wrong- I love this blog to death, and sometimes, I love the assignments that I write. But writing anything over 400-500 words drains my creative well. The quality worsens. I just... can’t explain it. I feel like a deflated balloon after 500 words. That’s why I don’t have any facebook notes over 500 words long (except for that Jack the Ripper thing which I copied from Wikipedia).
But my desire to write a novel is stronger than my desire to write a good novel right now. So I’m going to finish my novel (actually, it’d only be a novella, but whatever) by the end of November. It’s an interesting motivation to write, you know. Even if you don’t finish your work, it gives you a sense of achievement (I had tried last year. Couldn’t write past four thousand words, but it felt good to write those four thousand words). So, sign up for NaNoWriMo! Everyone could do with some writing practice! :D




Oh, and a happy new month! ^_^

Friday 2 November 2012

Sorry?





So I was sitting in front of my very pretty purple laptop wondering what should my blog post be about. Then, an idea struck me. I just finished reading an amazing book my Sheila O’Flanagan called ‘Bad Behavior’. The book is about a lot of bad behaviors and broke friendships and lost love and all that. BUT, what caught my attention was a certain theme it carried.

Why is it that when any relationships end, we tend to focus on all the bad parts and never on any good ones? Why is it that we remember that person for the one very big wrong that they did and not for the good that they did. The little things they had done and the big gestures? Where do the memories of those go? Is it because we don’t want to remember they had some good in them? Is our hatred that big that it makes us forget the lovely times? I’m not only talking about couple relationships, but, all relationships in general. So, yeah, sometimes we do remember the good times. But there’s a such a long gap when those memories come back. And that gap is too big to make any amends. Why are us humans like that?

There are so many relationships that I messed up. Some of which, I’m genuinely sorry about and some I will never blame myself for nor worry about amends. But, then again. That saddens me. Am I such a person that I can’t even forgive another person. Depends on what happened, maybe? Sure, some mistakes are huge. But, we really can’t make them forget the good times, can we? In my little lifetime, that I’ve had till now, I’ve done so so so many mistakes. All of which I’m sorry for. Correction- almost all of which, I’m sorry for. Is this my apology? Maybe.

Tuesday 30 October 2012

A I (After Introduction)


So, as you can see, the name of this blog is ‘What is Life about?’ Now, I know a lot of you will be thinking of this as a philosophical blog and expect us to write about existentialism and the likes. Sorry to disappoint you, but we think that life is about living it than thinking about it. And living life implies the presence of things that we engage in. Like fashion, Harry Potter, TV serials and stuff like that. That’s why, we’re going to tell you about the elements that comprise our lives and we hope you get a little enjoyment out of it :D
I’m not too fond out sitcoms. I get bored easily and it takes a lot of hot people or good plot or both to keep me interested. This friend (let’s call her Monica) recommended me Criminal Minds after I was left devastated by the biggest breakup of the century- Klaine (The fact that the guy who took a slushie with rock salt for Kurt cheats on him still brings tears to my eyes D: ). I’ve already seen Castle and a few episodes of other detective shows, so initially, I wasn’t interested. And then, Monica and I did a presentation on Modes of Interrogation in Popular Culture for class, and she included stuff from Criminal Minds. And listening to her, I thought I could give it a try.

So yeah, it’s not much of a show to watch for hot people (Your argument is invalid if you do not consider Matthew Gray Gubler as hot). But in every 3 episodes out of 5, there are some very good looking people. Criminals as well as victims. And I’ve always had this fascination with blood and gore and Criminal Minds has a lot of it! There are innovative crimes in every episode. I’m currently going through season 3 and I’ve come across quite a few tear jerking episodes. But honestly, my favorite kinds of episodes are the ones which have stalkers. 



I’ve always had a weird kind of fascination in analyzing stalkers ever since I got my own. Why do they stalk people? What makes them choose their target? But the fascination also comes from my belief in the fact I think that a girl doesn’t grow up until she’s had a stalker. A lot of you will disagree with me and say that a girl steps into maturity when she has her first period or has had sex or whatever. But you know, it takes so much courage and patience to deal with one and an absolutely astounding quantity of bitchiness to make the stalker go away. Now THAT’S growing up for me. So, those of you who haven’t had a stalker yet, go get one! ;)


Saturday 27 October 2012

Hello!




Hi. I’m the Swats in SmiSwats. And probably the insane one. Probably.  Smi and me have always thought of doing something together- something major, you know. And this blog is just a little step towards that something major.


I like everything pink(should I mention Orange?), sweet and chocolaty. And shopping. My posts will be extremely random; my poems will make you think that I’ve lived through all sorts of melodrama, when I really haven’t. Almost. Thank god for that.  I’m the entertainer. I’m the kind who never shuts up, even when asked to.  I still watch cartoons and lots of TV shows. So you will see a lot of Gossip Girl updates, especially with it being the last season and all that.


That’s all for now. I hope you enjoy our Insanely Orange blog!



Thursday 25 October 2012

Introduction

*peers out from behind the curtain*
Hi guys :D
I'm the 'Smi' part of 'SmiSwats'. This blog is for your entertainment. And ours. But well, you know what I mean, right?

I'm actually not very interesting, but the people I hang out with are. Most of the time, I'm going to be posting something about them (nope, not naming them. They might kill me in my sleep) but not today.
Today is an introduction. But I'm not going to say anything more about myself. I'll let this video speak for how I actually am. Enjoy :D

PS- Unfortunately, the person in the video is neither me nor any of my relatives (thank heavens for that :P)